Forgetting You For Forever.

You text me, saying hello how are you. I answer then you text me saying you heard I was mad at you. And I said by who? You tell me and I say yeah. You ask again, and I tell you. I’m not really mad, well mad about the Zarrick incident, but more than anything, I’m disappointed, in you. You tell me you hope it doesn’t last forever. But in fact, I’ve been disappointed in you my WHOLE life.

You ask me where we are going to go from here. I tell you, where do you want to go? You tell me so it’s true you won’t be at my wedding. I tell you, it’s best if I don’t go. Because honestly, Christie deserves better than you. You cheat on her. And so far, that’s all that’s been said. You tell me again, what do you want me to do you’re there, I’m here. And I tell you. Nothing then. Cause nothing can be done. This summer made me realize who you are.

To be honest, I don’t want you as a dad. I don’t need you. I, I, I don’t want you. . . Sure I think about you a lot. But only because I wish you had been there. I wish you had put more of an effort to be in my life. But, you didn’t. And it can’t be fixed now.

Rae, it’s 15 years too late to try and start being a dad now. I know how you were and who you are now. Other than that, the last words I have to say to you is this. . .

15 years too late for me. Try to be Chaz, Zarrick and Nevaeh’s father. Not mine. I’m giving up all hope for you. . .