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When the world seems to crash around me, I just have to look in your eyes and know everything will be okay.
But you aren't here anymore... And it saddens me... To know you were taken from me and our family so young... You ended your life, for god only knows why... But I wish you hadn't...
Sometimes I lie awake at night, motionless, just thinking of you, wondering what had caused you to do that...
Tia Rosa and Jacob, they found you... I know that must haunt them for the rest of their life... Because it haunts me, just knowing they had to witness it...
I think of your face, your voice, your gentleness towards me and Chaz...
It makes tears fall from my eyes everytime I think of you...
I cry myself to sleep, secretly, never telling a soul...
Because I miss you. Though we weren't always so close, you were there for me. And I loved you. You were my familia and without you sometimes, I don't think I could have made it through life. It's been probably about 5-6 years since you've been gone, but you are still on this lonely mind... I know I should forget it, because what happened, happened. It's the past, but how can you forget someone so close to you? Someone you loved? I can't. I won't. You are apart of my heart for forever. You showed me a lot about myself. And because of you, I know never to take drugs. Never to do anything that could physically or mentally hurt me...
And I'm grateful to you for that, even if was learning from your mistakes, that caused you to take your life.
I loved you, and I still do.
And without you, I don't know what would have happened to me...
I know God took you that day because he needed another angel...
But why he took you? Only God knows.
But you'll always be my angel...
You and uncle Franki.