-sigh

You know something I miss? I know I talked about it today. But I didn't really say much as to why I missed it, and why it has a value to me. I dreaded when winter came every year, because it meant that freezing cold snow would come. But not until I realized I was having my first Christmas without the tradition of snow, did it bum me out.. I never realized I'd miss snow.. To come to think of it..



I miss the way the little snowflakes would lightly hit the tip of my nose, making my nose turn red. I miss the way it felt cold and it stung, but still it made me slightly happy. I miss the way where you walked through it, you'd leave footprints. I miss the fact that I can't just jump outside and fall down in soft fluffy white snow. I can't make snow angels anymore. I can't make snowmen, or have snowball fights. I can't make myself a fortress when I feel like escaping the warm home and just need a place to call my own.

I remember Rockie and Allie. First year we owned those two dogs. First year we moved into that house. It was our first christmas in our new home, without Miracl and Midnit and it was just us four and the two little dogs. We got a day off of school, because the roads were to bad to drive on. And Victor decided to let the dogs out into the snow for their first time. It was so cute. They were adorable, and I remember Victor decided to see if they would catch snowballs. So he made one, without gloves on naturally, just so his fingers would freeze. Chaz and I were busily making a snowman, and Victor threw a snowball and Rockie jumped up in the air and caught it and ate it. I remember Chaz and I laughing. Then the stupid dogs went running into our neighbors yard. I remember that Christmas. My last Christmas in Ohio I believe. Fun times actually, happy times, even though I knew I'd be coming to Hawaii, where there would be snow.

I didn't think I'd miss it. But in fact, I do.I loved the way it fell lightly, and showered my hair with white little specks. I liked shaking my head, letting the once snowflakes turn into water and just melt. I loved eating the ice cicles found hanging from houses and cars and such. I loved making a fire in our fire place. I loved sitting on the roof at night, watching the snow fall, while the sky was dark. Pretty sight it was. It always seemed like the stars decided to twinkle extra bright those nights. I remember a lot of things, dealing with snow. Memories I thought I would forget but haven't forgotten quite yet.

I guess it's clear to see, that I do in fact miss something from Ohio, besides friends and family. I miss the nights where snow fell. I'm sorry I ever complained about the freezing-ness. Though the hot chocolate always seemed to heat me right up. I'm sorry I complained. I realized that if I could take it all back, all the times I whined and said it was pointless and stupid and I'd never miss it, I would. I do in fact miss snow. Dearly. And it sucks. My first Christmas without it. Fuck, there'd already be snow. But none comes here. I guess, I'll deal. A Christmas is a Christmas, depiste whether it has snow, or not.

It's plain to see, I miss you soft and fluffy white snow.

/Mica~