I want to talk about you..

Thanks for always being there for me, though I know I haven't always been there for you. It means a lot to me Alex, honestly, it really does. To be honest, I've been avoiding you for a couple days, though I've missed you dearly, I'm afraid you will disappear. Because a person can only have so much good things in their life, ya know? And I was afraid of getting close to you then you disappeared, but I'm letting go of that fear, and I'm going to make you stay, for as long as you want, you are always welcome to stay for forever, if you want, that is. I love you Alex.
-I love you; Mica Ramirez :3

An msn I sent Alex. Yeah, I saved it. Because I cried when I wrote it. I don't want to lose my best friend.

I met him on baltosource, dorky yes I do realize that, but I don't care. I've been on that site for 2 1/2 years, and have actually quite enjoyed it. I got on one day and remember seeing, "Alex Shepherd". Bored, I was checking out everyone's profile and clicked on his name. I read his questions, and I remember leaving a comment on his profile saying I had never seen a profile like his. And then we started talking. For some odd reason, I just wanted to keep talking to him. I didn't care if I annoyed him, or that stuff. I just wanted to keep talking to him.

And then I remember one time telling him to give me his number. He never did. But I figured I bothered him, but I still kept talking to him. Finally, somehow, I got his trust a little, and he gave me his msn! And we started talking a little.

For some odd reason, I just instantly trusted him from the start! And it was weird, because really, I have a trust problem. But I trusted him, and he just, made me like him. Soon enough he became my best friend, because he listened and gave advice to me, when I needed it. He didn't have a problem listening, and it felt nice. I could tell him honestly what was wrong, and he understood. And even if he didn't, he sure of a hell faked it, because I always believed him.

I'd do anything for this kid. If anyone were to hurt him, I'd swim the ocean, and I'm a terrible swimmer, yesterday we went to the beach and I nearly drowned, but anyway, I'd swim the ocean and kick whosevers ass that hurt my boy, Alex.

He's my best friend, though I just met him in June of 2009, so this year! O: He's always going to be there, I can feel it inside of me. And I really do hope he will always be here. It's nice to have him to talk to. I can be my real self around him, and I'm not even around him, so with him, but I'm not with him either. But you know what I mean right? Like, when we talk on msn, I can be my real self. I can cry, and tell him what's bothering me and not feel judged.

I honestly never thought I'd make best friends like this; but I have. Four of them actually o.o

But Alex, he makes me feel loved, and I couldn't lose him, NEVER;

I'm nothing special, but he tells me I am. and with him, I listen. Because I know he would never hurt me.

Alex you truly are my best friend; never forget that; I love you kiddo, :]

/Mica~